Welcome Lucian

Well first I must say I am sorry it took me so long to post this blog but I do think I have a very good excuse for not being able to. In my last blog I thought I might be in labor, well it turned out that that is exactly what it was. I went into the hospital at 9am and had Lucian at 7:59pm. Labor really wasn't that bad at all, at least not as bad as I was expecting. The crazy thing is that I got to come home the very next day.

Lucian Eden Balian Gear was born on January 17th 2006.
He was 9lbs 11oz and 20.4 inches. Brown hair, Brown eyes, 10 fingers, 10 toes, and compleately looks like his Father!!!

Maybe Labor?????

Well right now I may be in labor with baby but hummmmmm...... How do I really know??? I honestly hope it is labor because then baby is finally coming. It is kinda strange and all, for it to start today as I have a doctor's appointment in a few hours. lol if I still am unsure I will just go to my appointment and I am sure she will let me know if it is or isn't labor. As for now I am just letting everyone else get some sleep so that if it is labor they will all be ready for later on and a long day!!!! and if not then I didn't bother anyone with nothing. Which it really could be just false labor because as of now the contractions are a little bit off on the timing to be really labor. So yeah if it is false that is going to be oh so sad for me!!!!!!

3 day's overdue and going crazy!!!

Well I am now 3 day's overdue with baby and it is making me nutty. I just sit around my house waiting for something to happen and nothing is ever happening. Sometimes I start to get excited but then it always turns out to be nothing!!! I am seriously going crazy here. I woke up last night thinking that maybe I was having contractions but no such luck. It turned out just to be a cramp or something. I honestly think this is going to make me crazy if it last too much longer. One sad but good thing is that I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and she did say if by this Friday I haven't had the baby they will induce me. I really don't want to be induced but I guess I will just have to deal with whatever happens. At least I know the baby will be on it's way by this Friday no matter what.

Still no baby!!!

Well there is still no baby and I am still just sitting here waiting for it to show up. The longer it takes the less time my mom will be here to help me out. I will get induced this friday if it still has not made an apperance but I really just wish it would show today. I get grumpier and grumpier by the day!!!

Babies Due Date!!!

Well today is the babies due date!!! It doesn't look like it will be arriving anytime soon today. I guess I will have a few days of waiting or so. I am just hopeing it is soon as I am very sick of it already and I just want baby to come out and greet the world.

10 more days, I guess!!! Maybe???

Damn!!! People are so right about the last week or should I say the last two weeks!!! I am going crazy I want to just have the baby already. I didn't sleep at all, AT ALL last night and barely any other night this week. I hate this whole not sleeping, grumpy, can't get comfortable stuff. Personally I actually hope the baby comes early ummmmm like maybe on the 7th or just after that. Seeing as I would like my mother to be here when it happens and she is coming on the 7th!!
At least she is coming!! If I was all alone sitting here going into labor without Brandon home I think I would be really scared!! So lets just hope it all holds off until mom gets here but then that it happens right away!!!

I was even going to go out this week and try to take my mind off it all and have some fun, but after lastnight I really don't think that would be the smartest idea. I guess I am just going to have to wait for a while to leave my house. Maybe someone will just come to visit me this week instead!!!! Come on friends it is kinda scary to leave my house like this now. And I am really not into trying to make myself pretty!! lol

Well I can always hope for the best of it all. I am off to sleep on my living room floor on an air bed!! Lets hope that is better than the bed seeing as I don't do any sleeping in there anymore!!!

only 19 days left

Well there is only 19 days left until my due date. I am really hopeing that the baby holds off and actually comes on the the due date which is the 13th or it could come on the 15th or even the 20th those are the days I would love. Just because each one is special to me in a different way. Honestly sometimes I just want him to come out right now!! But then my mother wouldn't be here and I really want her here as well.

Oh well hummm-drummm I will have it soon enough I guess.

Merry Christmas

8 weeks and 4 days

I just can't believe it is all happening so fast!!! When I think about it time is just flying by and before I know it we are going to be parents!! Although at this point I am getting a bit sick of being pregnant and big and uncomfortable. I really don't understand the women who say it is so much fun and the best time of their lives. I just don't see it that way I guess. Not that I hate it at all it just isn't at all the time of my life. I am starting to worry about the role we are all going to take in this child's life and where everyone will stand. I know what role Brandon and I are going to play or at least I believe I know where we stand. That can always change but were is everyone else in this???? Or are they even in it at all??

Baby & Moving!!

I got to hear my babies heart beat today!!! It was so awesome, it also puts a bit more reality to it. We are also packing up the house, well really I am doing most of the packing as Brandon works a lot. I honestly didn't think the packing thing would be so hard. I guess being pregnant really does put a bit of a hold on what you are able to do and how much you find yourself able to do. I just have so much less energy and things seem much harder. hummm or I am just lazy????

We are moving and moving Fast!!!!!!

Well now that we have a baby on the way, our dreams of moving out to the country in a beautiful little country ranch, seem oh so much farther away. Not that we really were anywhere close to it right now anyway. lol We have a lot of bills to pay off and to save money well that wouldn't be happening for a great long time. So Brandon's parents offered to help us out and suggested that we should move in there for a while. Honestly when you look at it is a really great idea but I still worry about moving into someone elses personal space with a baby none the less.

So here is to hoping it all works out and the baby doesn't drive anyone crazy!!!!! lol As I am sure it won't, but worries are still valid.

Baby Time

Wow I can't believe we just got married!!! and already we are going to have a baby!!! A BABY A little life It is so exciting and oh so scary!!