Lucian is the only inspiration I ever need!
From the day he was born I knew he was worth the world ten times over!
I couldn't take my hand off you when we slept that first night I was so scared something would take it all away!
How my amazing husband was overcome when Lucian entered the world! I will never forget the love in his eyes!
When now Lucian you are seven months old and I don't know where the time has gone. You won't cuddle with me anymore but I know it is only because you are always on the go. To get a little cuddle in I know I have to get it right before you wake up too much after a nap or when you are super sleepy before bed. The days of Lucian sleeping in my arms is long over.
You are stuck in your ways before I even knew you could have ways! At times I get so frustrated that I can't tell you how things work or the ways of the world, and that if you would just sit still when I change you it wouldn't take half as long to do! I have never had such a love for something in my life.
When I married Brandon I thought I had found the most amazing thing this world had to offer me: a soul to which mine matched perfectly, someone who understood me without me ever having to explain, a person I could spend every single day with and not wish for anything more. Then Lucian was born and I realize what I thought was the best thing in my life had grown even bigger, even better but a hell of a lot scarier! My family is an extention of my soul and heart.
Now I have to keep that heart safe and close, away from evil and darkness. I know better than most where darkness and evil lurks, it is a scary thing to think about your children going though the lives we have lived, the troubles we have seen and the places even I dared not to venture.
I hope my children can learn from most of my mistakes as well as their own. Know that we love them and only want, what we believe to be the best things for them. Trust in themselves and their loved ones to be there when times get hard and things seem lost.
Just Believe.................................
