First Movements!!!!!

I already blogged tonight but I had to add that I just felt the little baby move!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited and so happy that it is still ok and alive in there!!!!! Seeing as my old doctor hasn't even listened to the heart beat and I am almost 17 weeks along. Oh I am so happy and excited!!! I wish I had more people to call at 11:30pm and share the news. Maybe I should text some people????

We have decided

Well we have decide, after my information session at the Westveiw Medical Centre, that this is going to be the hospital for us. Instead of going to the super busy, cold, unfriendly and evilish Royal Alex we will be going to a much more birth orientated place. The Westveiw has three midwives that you build a relationship with throughout your whole pregnancy you also have group meetings with eight to ten other women that are due in the same month. They also have two doctors at all times. You always get your own room. Your room has a shower, a soaker tub, a birthing bed and a double Murphy bed. After your baby is born they never leave you unless there is a serious problem. AND they let your family stay with you if you what, plus you also get to eat and drink as much as you want and birth your baby how ever you want.

I am so excited!!! The only thing that kinda sucks about this is that it is like a half-hour drive in Stony Plain. In the long run I believe it is totally worth it, seeing as my doctor now has barley seen me at all and when she does its is only for 5 minutes. We have our first appointment on March 21.

I can't wait to see what it is going to be like!!

Sunday Evening.

Well I guess the thing about a family blog is that you should blog on it often so that people keep coming back. Hee hee. Well we really haven't had that much of a exciting week. My birthday was on the 28th and our friend Stephy came over to visit us all. She brought Lucian toys that he loved and a new outfit!! Thank Steph!! Brandon took my birthday off, mostly because I made him and I guess because he must love me. LOL

Lucian has been doing great. I really want to take him into a dentist though because when I brush his top teeth he completely freaks out. In fact I don't think I have ever heard him scream so loud in his life. He is fine with all other teeth but when you get to those top ones it is just horrible. Today he got up an hour early and only got to sleep for an hour nap so he was one very unhappy boy.

For my birthday my friend Kelly took me and another friend of ours out to see a tarot reader and I must say it was absolutely amazing!! I have never been so blown away by something like that in my life. She knew every little thing about my life. She even knew a ton about Brandon and my father. I think Kelly would really love to go back so I am thinking about taking her again for her birthday in April.

Brandon and I did our taxes today and found out that you can no longer claim your children as your dependents. Why?? But we just had children!! LOL Oh well, what can you really do I guess. After we were done that we when and picked up a cell phone for me!! We were going to wait until I was at least five month pregnant but I knew what phone I really wanted so we just went and got it today!! I am very excited about it. I have been playing with it most the day. I already killed the battery.

Well we are off to watch Desperate Housewives!!

Talk to you soon!!

Teeth

I just discovered this morning that Lucian is getting even more teeth. At the moment he has twelve and I think that by the time is he two years old he might have all of them, if he keeps going the way he is now.

He is also starting to grow out of all of his clothes, once again. It seems like I just put away a bunch of clothes that he grew out of and now I have to pull a bunch more out and put away a another bunch. Although I should think about starting to get things ready for the baby at the same time, that way it is a lot less work later. Unless that is, Lucian grows out of another bunch of clothes before the baby comes.

Doula's

Today we had a meeting with the Douala's that we are going to hire to aid in the birth of the little bean. They were great!! We were so impressed with them and they made me feel so comfortable and relaxed, which is what I will need at this next birth. Most likely Brandon will not be able to attend the birth of the next little babe seeing as he will be home with Lucian. At least until my mom gets up here. So I really need someone there to help and support me through labor, I am so scared of being alone! I am having really mixed feelings about the labor because on one hand I want it to really quick and over with but on the other hand I really want it to hold out until my mom shows up so that Brandon can be present at the birth.

I also don't think that I will be delivering at the Royal Alex anymore because I really hated it there the first time, why would I go back a second. So we are checking into a birthing center in Stony Plain. It seems like a really great place where they focus a lot more on you and your family instead of just treating it like an assembly line and throwing you into a room so that they can forget all about you. I am going to an information session on March 7th. Lets home everything goes well.

Lucian is all boy!

Well in the last week Lucian has gotten his first big bruise, chipped a tooth and cut open his toe. He is so rowdy sometimes and so crazy that I think there is no mistaking that he is all boy. We have been putting him to bed a little bit earlier and it has really been helping with his moods. Sometimes he can get really really cranky but we found the earlier his bedtime the better.

Brandon hurt his neck this last week, playing with Lucian. He was throwing him around and playing and Lucian kind of landed on his Brandon head. So Brandon has been all doped up trying to get rid of the pain. He always seems to hurt himself playing with his son.

My mom just left on Tuesday with her new puppy. I am so glad I don't have a puppy! I don't think I could handle taking care of a puppy, Lucian and a new baby. Just too crazy. If we ever get the house we want out in the country that is when I will think about getting a dog but not until. LOL I just think they are much like children, and I always said I would have children before I ever owned a dog. I have been thinking I will have all my children before I ever get a dog.

Welcome to our family blog.

Well we have decide that it is time to start a family blog. This way you can all check in on us and see how we are doing and what we are up too. We can post pictures and you can see them and download them if you would like. That way we will keep in better touch with each other or at least you will be better able to see what is happening in the lives of us.

Enjoy!

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The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck

Tuesday, +1, beautiful and a bean for us.

Yay it is gorgeous out today and I love it!! I might take Lucian for a little walk later if it is still nice out. Who knows though, when he gets up it is usually way to cold or dark. I had my ultrasound today and the lady freaked me out in the beginning by not being able to find anything at all!!!! Then she did an internal and found our little bean!!! YAY Although with the size it says that my due date would be the 26th of August which is not really what I wanted to hear! I hope baby comes right on time or a week early. I really don't want a September babe although I do love Sapphire!!!

Milk

Lucian is officially on milk!!! YAY!! And I tell you milk is so much easier that formula!!!! I hate formula!!! Hopefully with the next child breast feeding will be a go and the next one will actually latch on!!! Lucian was so not a breast man and was so lazy when it came to eating.
Yay for milk!!!

Oh Monday

Well today is Monday and I don't really like Mondays. UPS sucks ass, as my guitar and amp have been shipped together since the 28th of December but for some reason they don't arrive together. I got my amp at 8:30 this morning but no guitar!! Fuckers. Anyway I was really looking forward to going to the gym today seeing as I didn't get to go all weekend and barely at all during the week! Sorry Kelly!!!!! Brandon has been super sick all weekend and I guess he deserves to sleep in a little today, I guess I should just be thankful that I am not sick. My uncle died so I also won't get to go to the gym most of this week. I have a doctor's appointment on the 10th and hopefully while everyone else is at my uncles funeral on the 11th I will be babysitting my little niece and Lucian and her can play! I guess if Brandon isn't too bad tomorrow that will be the only day this week I will get to go to the gym.

I guess if I wasn't so worried about Lucian getting that RPV or whatever it is that is going around madly then I could just take him to the spa lady day care but what with most the schools sending home notes about this and how bad it is becoming I would rather not chance it. I really would like to avoid any major sicknesses until Lucian is a least a year or older.
Lucian's birthday is coming up and I have nothing planned, I feel like a horrible mother but I just don't know many people that would come to a birthday party for him and I wouldn't want to have a lot of kids here where there is no room, I could just see it turning out really bad. So yeah I don't really know what to do. He is only a year, hopefully he won't hold it against me.

You are making me so sick!

Oh little baby in my tummy, do you know how unbelieveably sick you are making me? I feel like death on a really bad day. I am sick almost all the time, everyday all day!!! Oh god please let me feel better little baby!!

I know something you don't know!

I think there is a baby in my Tummy!!!!!!!
YAY I hope!!!!!

Oh so freaked

Car crashes are bad!!!! Oh so scary!! I never ever want Brandon to drive to work again!!!

Lucian's Teeth

Lucian is teething again lately!!!! Yay his top teeth are coming in and the first one broke threw just this morning!!!!! Yay for Lucian. Hee hee at least he doesn't seem to mind in the least bit. LOL HE is a GREAT teether.
My tattoo is today!!! Maybe I should run!!! Oh the pain!!

Phantom

Last Saturday Brandon and I went to The Phantom of the Opera!! It was amazing! I have always avoided watching the Phantom when it has been on TV or anywhere in general because I really wanted to see it for the first time live. It was worth the wait, in fact it might have been even better than worth the wait, it was amazing. I loved every second of it.
I was truely amazed by the characters power! They blew me away, their voices just viberate through you like you couldn't believe!!!

Well anyway I just loved every minunte of it and had to post about it!!!!!

Yoga

Ok so I love Yoga, I kinda always have. I have been doing all sorts of Yoga since I was small. I do it 3 times a week. Recently Brandon hurt his back at work, he is always super sore now and doesn't do much but sit on the couch. Yesterday he says to me I should be streching more. Well of course you should Brandon!! So I said why don't you do some Yoga with me and so we jump on the floor and I put him into a few Yoga positions everything worked well and I wasn't hurting him any more than he already hurt. So things worked well. He calls me from work on his break and says, "I think I should start doing Yoga with you, my back feels a lot better." lol oh this is going to be so cute. I have been trying to get people to do Yoga with me forever. I kinda gave up.

Awww now when Lucian is older we can teach him Yoga too and we will all be a Yoga family. LOL

Lucian is teething again!

Back to the running nose and whinnyness of my poor beautiful son. As he is teething once again and now getting his top 2 teeth. I just hope they don't go back up. I would hate to go through all of this for nothing!! The poor little guy!

My Son Is My Everything!

Lucian is the only inspiration I ever need!

From the day he was born I knew he was worth the world ten times over!

I couldn't take my hand off you when we slept that first night I was so scared something would take it all away!

How my amazing husband was overcome when Lucian entered the world! I will never forget the love in his eyes!

When now Lucian you are seven months old and I don't know where the time has gone. You won't cuddle with me anymore but I know it is only because you are always on the go. To get a little cuddle in I know I have to get it right before you wake up too much after a nap or when you are super sleepy before bed. The days of Lucian sleeping in my arms is long over.

You are stuck in your ways before I even knew you could have ways! At times I get so frustrated that I can't tell you how things work or the ways of the world, and that if you would just sit still when I change you it wouldn't take half as long to do! I have never had such a love for something in my life.

When I married Brandon I thought I had found the most amazing thing this world had to offer me: a soul to which mine matched perfectly, someone who understood me without me ever having to explain, a person I could spend every single day with and not wish for anything more. Then Lucian was born and I realize what I thought was the best thing in my life had grown even bigger, even better but a hell of a lot scarier! My family is an extention of my soul and heart.

Now I have to keep that heart safe and close, away from evil and darkness. I know better than most where darkness and evil lurks, it is a scary thing to think about your children going though the lives we have lived, the troubles we have seen and the places even I dared not to venture.

I hope my children can learn from most of my mistakes as well as their own. Know that we love them and only want, what we believe to be the best things for them. Trust in themselves and their loved ones to be there when times get hard and things seem lost.

Just Believe.................................

Lucian is born.

BIRTH STORY
On January 17th at 5am I started feeling what I thought might be labor contractions but I really didn't know and I didn't want to go into the hospital just to be sent home. So I waited until about 8:30am and then we went into the hospital because things weren't really changing much. When we got to the hospital they checked me out and I was 4cm along and things looked to be moving along nicely. We then got moved to our own room and I jumped into the shower for a hour or so. Honestly I could have had the baby in there but there were nurses and doctors that kept coming into my hospital room and checking with stuff and I felt that they were all waiting for me to get out of the shower. So I did. This was at about 11am and they checked me and I turned out to be 6cm so they broke my water. After that contractions started to get really bad so I tried to get back into the shower but I just couldn't handle standing and having contractions. So I jumped back into the bed to see how that was going to be but the contractions were just getting to be a little much. I didn't want to have any drugs and didn't want to have an epidural but I just felt that being less stressed would be better for us all. I got the epidural at about 11:30am when I was 7cm along. Then things stopped. I didn't really move along and for some reason I could still feel all my contractions. Later on we found out they put the epidural in wrong so at 4:30pm they gave me another epidural and things started to move along quickly and by 7pm I was ready to push. I started pushing with all my might and at 7:59pm Lucian Eden Balian Gear was born into the world.

He has been the greatest little gift this world could offer. It is amazing how much your view on love changes when you give birth. Right after I had him I knew he would be our everything and that I would also be always oh so worried about him and everything around him and how things will influence him in life. But we will try our best as that is all we really can do and hope that what we think is best really turns out to be best. lol and that he makes great choices in life and we can offer him everything he needs.

So our little family has started on its way in life. Lets hope the path stays full of love and promise.