More Pictures

Lucian likes to hide under the couch!! I hate it and don't approve at all, in fact I think we may be putting it right to the floor if it continues.






Lucian also likes to lay on Max, luckily and thankfully Max doesn't mind at all!


OMG Lucian found a STICK!!! It made his day!!

He even had to give it a taste!!


It seems the photo posting problem I have been having is being caused by the amount of photos I am trying to add. Apparently this blogger only wants me to have about 7 photos at a time or it stops working. So I have added this one mostly for the pictures! Even though the last blog I posted had 13 photos??? Strange program!!!

Anyhoo, enjoy!

Pictures

Here are some pictures that I have been trying to post for about two weeks now and not having a ounce of luck until now. Even though I was only able to post half of them.

Here is Lucian and Corbin having a little snack.


If I would have waited 2 seconds more on this picture they both were in a full on embrace. It was too cute!

Corbin was pretending that all my butterflies and bugs on the wall were monsters and spiders. He would keep running and hiding behind the couch.

We went to Peace River for Easter. We only visited Bink and his family while we were there. It was so much fun to get out and take Lucian over there. Sara kept calling Lucian, "hey boy".
Binky and Sara look so cute!

Brandon and I got to take a walk right after Easter dinner, and we needed it.

Peace River is such a beautiful place!

This is Lucian on the way back from Peace River.

Well we had thought winter was over but just after Easter we got another big snowfall, so Lucian and I decided to run out and play in it.

As you can kinda tell, Lucian does not love snow. LOL


Well I guess that is all for this blog. I will try to post the rest of the pictures in another blog soon. It was my nieces first birthday on April 21, so I have some pictures from her party that I need to post up. Lucian had a blast playing with all of the other children. There were 5 children all between the ages of 1 and 2. Plus we had 3 pregnant ladies there so by the time it is Emma's birthday next year, the children will have almost doubled.

Really quick update.

Well I was hoping yesterday that I would be able to update everyone on what has been happening and post some pictures but Lucian has been sick so I haven't had much time for anything!! I am hoping in the next few days that he will be feeling a lot better and I will actually have some time to get online.

offline

Sorry I haven't been online much my internet is acting funky and no one can come to fix it until the 19th so I may not be online very often until then. Talk to you all soon!!!!

Pictures of the Bean

Well we went to get our first Ultrasound when I was only 8 weeks along. So it doesn't really look like all that much but a little bean. The top little part that looks like a bean is the baby. I would have posted this a lot sooner but I had to wait until I could scan the picture which seeing as I don't have a scanner, I had to do at my mamma's this Easter.

This is the picture we got taken at our ultrasound just last week. If you click on it and enlarge it you can actually see quite a lot of little features. When we went to have the ultrasound the baby was so active that it took the person a lot before she could even get the pictures. Although she still couldn't tell us what sex the baby was. Brandon is adamant to find out what the sex is so he made us an appointment an this place http://www.uc-baby.com/ab/index.php <---CLICK IT. So we have an appointment at that place on May 12. We are super excited. I wish we could just know now.

Leaving again.

Today Lucian discovered that he doesn't like broken cookies. If it's broken he isn't eating it. I kept telling him to eat his cookies and he would just look at his broken pieces and cry at them. Corbin came over for a little while today and he had a blast. He ran around like a turkey!! He is so full of energy that even Lucian could keep up with him. Finally he had to sit back and just kind of watch Corbin run everywhere. It was a lot of fun.

Kinda scary news, at Brandon's work they have had almost 20 layoff in two days. I am really freaked out about it but I am not going to let it effect my weekend in anyway. Nothing will effect my turkey feast! I can't wait to see my momma, we are going to dress Lucian up and stick him in the snow. Oh it is going to be a fun weekend, minus all the driving.

I will update with pictures once we get back from our little Easter trip.

Everyone have a great Easter!!!!!!

Owie, my are hurts!

Well I think Lucian has finally stepped into the wonderful world of toddler hood. In the last week Lucian has started doing everything he shouldn't be doing. He is throwing things at me, hitting me, beating the cats, and he even bit me again but this time harder than ever before. I am bruised and half expected to be bleeding it was so bad. We need to buckle down and become parents, time to start with the discipline. Now we just need to figure out what is going to work with the little man.

He is such a great kid I was just hoping he would miss this phase all together. Wouldn't that have been nice.

We just got back from our ultrasound.

It appears that we are having a very active health little baby!!
YAY 2 legs, 2 arms, a spine, a stomach, liver, kidneys, head and heart beat.
So I guess we just have to get through the next 20 weeks to meet the little one.

I forgot to add

Yesterday when I posted I forgot to also add that it was our 2 year anniversary on Saturday!! Yay us. LOL

I had a dentist appointment today and I only had a little itty bitty cavity. That they were able to fixed right then and there. So I am all good for another year. Lets just hope it isn't another 5 years until my next visit. LOL but luckily my teeth were in great condition for not seeing a dentist in so long.

Tomorrow is our ultrasound!! We are so excited to see the little bean!!! Can't wait to find out what it may be.

Relaxing weekend.

We got our car back this weekend!! Yay, so it looks like we will be able to head up to Peace River for turkey dinner after all. I can't wait!! turkey dinner is my favorite meal. We noticed some really weird actions by our car company once we had our car home. Don Wheaton, where we have always taken our car, is usually a car company that has a ton of paper work. When they change a fuse it is all about paperwork, when you drop off your car, when you pick your car up. This time, NO PAPERWORK AT ALL??? Isn't that a bit strange?? We didn't even really notice it until after the fact. Now I am a little worried that they didn't even put it on the books and that this is something we should be looking into. But now that we have the car back, it is a little late.

Last night Brandon and I made a Pot Roast in our new slow cooker, that I got for my birthday. It was so good! Lucian was having a really funny day and didn't really eat much all day. So sadly he didn't even try our roast but trust me it was awesome. Wish you all would have been here to share it with us!

Today Brandon and I took Lucian out swimming. Lucian really wasn't too sure about it. I think he will like swimming a lot more once he can touch the bottom. He seems to have gotten a little to use to the bath tub and the pool was just a bit much for him. We are hoping to take him often during the summer so maybe he will warm up to it a bit more.

So honestly we didn't really get to do a whole lot this weekend and enjoyed just being lazy and having a relaxing time at home. Now I am off to watch some Harry Potter and cross stitch.

Some pictures from our last two weeks.

Here are some pictures from up north, and why didn't I take any pictures of the snow???

Lucian and Zorra

Trina, Amber, Lucian and I

Tanner, look at those beautiful eyes.

Lucian's first fat lip/cut.

This last weekend Laurie, Brandon's mommy came out to visit us. It was great to have her here. Lucian loved playing with Grandma!

Lucian got a wetsuit! LOL it is so cute. Brandon and I are hoping to take him swimming this coming weekend.

And then our tire fell off. That's right "FELL OFF!!" it was not fun! Thankfully everything is going to be covered and we should have to pay for anything. Thank god!!!

So after all that it is Monday and I think I need to get back to my spring cleaning. Not that I really want to, at all. I had better just get to it though if I expect to head up to Peace River for Easter.

But it is such a wonderful day.

I wish I was outside!!

Busy busy busy!!

Sorry everyone for not posting much lately. We have been so busy ever since Lucian and I got back from Peace River. Once I got back from Peace it was time to do some serious spring cleaning which we only got half way done. Next weekend we plan to tackle the last half. Then on Wednesday Brandon's mommy came up to visit us!! So instead of blogging I was visiting and cleaning but I promise to put away some time tomorrow to catch everyone up on all that has happened in the lives of Gear.

We are home!!

Well we got back to Edmonton ok. Our trip up to Peace River was quite the adventure. I pulled over to feed Lucian a banana on the side of a gravel road and got completely sucked into the ditch. Luckily we didn't have to wait there for too long before some really great farmers helped us out! Thank you so much!!! Then two hours later we drove down into the valley that is Peace River and realized that they have mountains and mountains of snow right now!!! When I got to my mothers house I could barely walk up her sidewalk as the snow had drifted 4 feet over the walkway. So I took Lucian in to visit with Baba and grabbed up the shovel and headed out to shovel the mountain of snow away. After all is done Lucian is happy to be out of the car and hungry so we start making supper when all of a sudden it sounds like it is pouring outside. It was! It rained for and hour or so and then proceeded to snow again about a foot. So there I was the next morning out with the shovel again.

Thinking about it all now if I had went into the back yard and just started tunneling I could have dug myself a great little igloo but oh how much work that would have been. Not to mention she has three dogs that do there business out there in that big pile of snow. On second thought that would have been a really really bad idea!!! Ewwww.

Lucian was pretty good on the drive up, he only had a few little melt downs. After the first day of visiting he started acting very insecure and needy. Then on the second day is was absolutely hysterical.

Now in the mean time Brandon is at home with this killer head cold that he oh so conveniently got when we had left. Here I was thinking thank the lords we aren't at home and won't catch this cold!! Not so lucky.

On the third day it was clear that the reason Lucian had been so upset the days before was that he had indeed caught Brandon's head cold before we left. He was sick for the rest of our visit. We have been home for three days now and he is still pretty sick. For a while I actually thought he was over the worst of it but now it seems as if he is just picking up different aspects of the cold. Today he is starting to be super needy and frustrated again.

I was hoping to get out to the gym a few times this week but by the looks of things it doesn't look like I will be able to go much of anywhere. I might even end up by taking him in to his pediatrician if it continues to get much worse. He has started coughing like a dog barking in the last two days and it is getting pretty violent as the day goes on. Geezzz and I thought I got away from all the barking once I left my mothers. HEe hee!! Poor little guy, on top of all this he was acting a little crazy in the kitchen earlier and fell and smacked his face on the floor and cut open his lip a little bit.

I hope by tomorrow he is doing a bit better and I can rest a little easier! He has only been sick one other time and that was when we went on vacation to BC and he really wasn't that bad at all. It was just a little bit of a cold that he was over within three days, nothing like this. Anyway I should be ending this and heading off to start supper so that when he gets up all there is left to do it cook it.

Just letting everyone know.

Lucian and I are off to visit my mother in Peace tomorrow so I won't be updating until we get back around next Sunday! I hope everyone has a great week.

Be back soon!!!!

Finally a picture blog!!

We got a better camera to take some pictures!!! YAY!!! Now everyone can see how the little guy is doing.

YAY isn't Lucian wonderful!!! LOL

First Movements!!!!!

I already blogged tonight but I had to add that I just felt the little baby move!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited and so happy that it is still ok and alive in there!!!!! Seeing as my old doctor hasn't even listened to the heart beat and I am almost 17 weeks along. Oh I am so happy and excited!!! I wish I had more people to call at 11:30pm and share the news. Maybe I should text some people????

We have decided

Well we have decide, after my information session at the Westveiw Medical Centre, that this is going to be the hospital for us. Instead of going to the super busy, cold, unfriendly and evilish Royal Alex we will be going to a much more birth orientated place. The Westveiw has three midwives that you build a relationship with throughout your whole pregnancy you also have group meetings with eight to ten other women that are due in the same month. They also have two doctors at all times. You always get your own room. Your room has a shower, a soaker tub, a birthing bed and a double Murphy bed. After your baby is born they never leave you unless there is a serious problem. AND they let your family stay with you if you what, plus you also get to eat and drink as much as you want and birth your baby how ever you want.

I am so excited!!! The only thing that kinda sucks about this is that it is like a half-hour drive in Stony Plain. In the long run I believe it is totally worth it, seeing as my doctor now has barley seen me at all and when she does its is only for 5 minutes. We have our first appointment on March 21.

I can't wait to see what it is going to be like!!

Sunday Evening.

Well I guess the thing about a family blog is that you should blog on it often so that people keep coming back. Hee hee. Well we really haven't had that much of a exciting week. My birthday was on the 28th and our friend Stephy came over to visit us all. She brought Lucian toys that he loved and a new outfit!! Thank Steph!! Brandon took my birthday off, mostly because I made him and I guess because he must love me. LOL

Lucian has been doing great. I really want to take him into a dentist though because when I brush his top teeth he completely freaks out. In fact I don't think I have ever heard him scream so loud in his life. He is fine with all other teeth but when you get to those top ones it is just horrible. Today he got up an hour early and only got to sleep for an hour nap so he was one very unhappy boy.

For my birthday my friend Kelly took me and another friend of ours out to see a tarot reader and I must say it was absolutely amazing!! I have never been so blown away by something like that in my life. She knew every little thing about my life. She even knew a ton about Brandon and my father. I think Kelly would really love to go back so I am thinking about taking her again for her birthday in April.

Brandon and I did our taxes today and found out that you can no longer claim your children as your dependents. Why?? But we just had children!! LOL Oh well, what can you really do I guess. After we were done that we when and picked up a cell phone for me!! We were going to wait until I was at least five month pregnant but I knew what phone I really wanted so we just went and got it today!! I am very excited about it. I have been playing with it most the day. I already killed the battery.

Well we are off to watch Desperate Housewives!!

Talk to you soon!!

Teeth

I just discovered this morning that Lucian is getting even more teeth. At the moment he has twelve and I think that by the time is he two years old he might have all of them, if he keeps going the way he is now.

He is also starting to grow out of all of his clothes, once again. It seems like I just put away a bunch of clothes that he grew out of and now I have to pull a bunch more out and put away a another bunch. Although I should think about starting to get things ready for the baby at the same time, that way it is a lot less work later. Unless that is, Lucian grows out of another bunch of clothes before the baby comes.

Doula's

Today we had a meeting with the Douala's that we are going to hire to aid in the birth of the little bean. They were great!! We were so impressed with them and they made me feel so comfortable and relaxed, which is what I will need at this next birth. Most likely Brandon will not be able to attend the birth of the next little babe seeing as he will be home with Lucian. At least until my mom gets up here. So I really need someone there to help and support me through labor, I am so scared of being alone! I am having really mixed feelings about the labor because on one hand I want it to really quick and over with but on the other hand I really want it to hold out until my mom shows up so that Brandon can be present at the birth.

I also don't think that I will be delivering at the Royal Alex anymore because I really hated it there the first time, why would I go back a second. So we are checking into a birthing center in Stony Plain. It seems like a really great place where they focus a lot more on you and your family instead of just treating it like an assembly line and throwing you into a room so that they can forget all about you. I am going to an information session on March 7th. Lets home everything goes well.

Lucian is all boy!

Well in the last week Lucian has gotten his first big bruise, chipped a tooth and cut open his toe. He is so rowdy sometimes and so crazy that I think there is no mistaking that he is all boy. We have been putting him to bed a little bit earlier and it has really been helping with his moods. Sometimes he can get really really cranky but we found the earlier his bedtime the better.

Brandon hurt his neck this last week, playing with Lucian. He was throwing him around and playing and Lucian kind of landed on his Brandon head. So Brandon has been all doped up trying to get rid of the pain. He always seems to hurt himself playing with his son.

My mom just left on Tuesday with her new puppy. I am so glad I don't have a puppy! I don't think I could handle taking care of a puppy, Lucian and a new baby. Just too crazy. If we ever get the house we want out in the country that is when I will think about getting a dog but not until. LOL I just think they are much like children, and I always said I would have children before I ever owned a dog. I have been thinking I will have all my children before I ever get a dog.

Welcome to our family blog.

Well we have decide that it is time to start a family blog. This way you can all check in on us and see how we are doing and what we are up too. We can post pictures and you can see them and download them if you would like. That way we will keep in better touch with each other or at least you will be better able to see what is happening in the lives of us.

Enjoy!

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The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck

Tuesday, +1, beautiful and a bean for us.

Yay it is gorgeous out today and I love it!! I might take Lucian for a little walk later if it is still nice out. Who knows though, when he gets up it is usually way to cold or dark. I had my ultrasound today and the lady freaked me out in the beginning by not being able to find anything at all!!!! Then she did an internal and found our little bean!!! YAY Although with the size it says that my due date would be the 26th of August which is not really what I wanted to hear! I hope baby comes right on time or a week early. I really don't want a September babe although I do love Sapphire!!!

Milk

Lucian is officially on milk!!! YAY!! And I tell you milk is so much easier that formula!!!! I hate formula!!! Hopefully with the next child breast feeding will be a go and the next one will actually latch on!!! Lucian was so not a breast man and was so lazy when it came to eating.
Yay for milk!!!

Oh Monday

Well today is Monday and I don't really like Mondays. UPS sucks ass, as my guitar and amp have been shipped together since the 28th of December but for some reason they don't arrive together. I got my amp at 8:30 this morning but no guitar!! Fuckers. Anyway I was really looking forward to going to the gym today seeing as I didn't get to go all weekend and barely at all during the week! Sorry Kelly!!!!! Brandon has been super sick all weekend and I guess he deserves to sleep in a little today, I guess I should just be thankful that I am not sick. My uncle died so I also won't get to go to the gym most of this week. I have a doctor's appointment on the 10th and hopefully while everyone else is at my uncles funeral on the 11th I will be babysitting my little niece and Lucian and her can play! I guess if Brandon isn't too bad tomorrow that will be the only day this week I will get to go to the gym.

I guess if I wasn't so worried about Lucian getting that RPV or whatever it is that is going around madly then I could just take him to the spa lady day care but what with most the schools sending home notes about this and how bad it is becoming I would rather not chance it. I really would like to avoid any major sicknesses until Lucian is a least a year or older.
Lucian's birthday is coming up and I have nothing planned, I feel like a horrible mother but I just don't know many people that would come to a birthday party for him and I wouldn't want to have a lot of kids here where there is no room, I could just see it turning out really bad. So yeah I don't really know what to do. He is only a year, hopefully he won't hold it against me.

You are making me so sick!

Oh little baby in my tummy, do you know how unbelieveably sick you are making me? I feel like death on a really bad day. I am sick almost all the time, everyday all day!!! Oh god please let me feel better little baby!!

I know something you don't know!

I think there is a baby in my Tummy!!!!!!!
YAY I hope!!!!!

Oh so freaked

Car crashes are bad!!!! Oh so scary!! I never ever want Brandon to drive to work again!!!

Lucian's Teeth

Lucian is teething again lately!!!! Yay his top teeth are coming in and the first one broke threw just this morning!!!!! Yay for Lucian. Hee hee at least he doesn't seem to mind in the least bit. LOL HE is a GREAT teether.
My tattoo is today!!! Maybe I should run!!! Oh the pain!!

Phantom

Last Saturday Brandon and I went to The Phantom of the Opera!! It was amazing! I have always avoided watching the Phantom when it has been on TV or anywhere in general because I really wanted to see it for the first time live. It was worth the wait, in fact it might have been even better than worth the wait, it was amazing. I loved every second of it.
I was truely amazed by the characters power! They blew me away, their voices just viberate through you like you couldn't believe!!!

Well anyway I just loved every minunte of it and had to post about it!!!!!

Yoga

Ok so I love Yoga, I kinda always have. I have been doing all sorts of Yoga since I was small. I do it 3 times a week. Recently Brandon hurt his back at work, he is always super sore now and doesn't do much but sit on the couch. Yesterday he says to me I should be streching more. Well of course you should Brandon!! So I said why don't you do some Yoga with me and so we jump on the floor and I put him into a few Yoga positions everything worked well and I wasn't hurting him any more than he already hurt. So things worked well. He calls me from work on his break and says, "I think I should start doing Yoga with you, my back feels a lot better." lol oh this is going to be so cute. I have been trying to get people to do Yoga with me forever. I kinda gave up.

Awww now when Lucian is older we can teach him Yoga too and we will all be a Yoga family. LOL

Lucian is teething again!

Back to the running nose and whinnyness of my poor beautiful son. As he is teething once again and now getting his top 2 teeth. I just hope they don't go back up. I would hate to go through all of this for nothing!! The poor little guy!

My Son Is My Everything!

Lucian is the only inspiration I ever need!

From the day he was born I knew he was worth the world ten times over!

I couldn't take my hand off you when we slept that first night I was so scared something would take it all away!

How my amazing husband was overcome when Lucian entered the world! I will never forget the love in his eyes!

When now Lucian you are seven months old and I don't know where the time has gone. You won't cuddle with me anymore but I know it is only because you are always on the go. To get a little cuddle in I know I have to get it right before you wake up too much after a nap or when you are super sleepy before bed. The days of Lucian sleeping in my arms is long over.

You are stuck in your ways before I even knew you could have ways! At times I get so frustrated that I can't tell you how things work or the ways of the world, and that if you would just sit still when I change you it wouldn't take half as long to do! I have never had such a love for something in my life.

When I married Brandon I thought I had found the most amazing thing this world had to offer me: a soul to which mine matched perfectly, someone who understood me without me ever having to explain, a person I could spend every single day with and not wish for anything more. Then Lucian was born and I realize what I thought was the best thing in my life had grown even bigger, even better but a hell of a lot scarier! My family is an extention of my soul and heart.

Now I have to keep that heart safe and close, away from evil and darkness. I know better than most where darkness and evil lurks, it is a scary thing to think about your children going though the lives we have lived, the troubles we have seen and the places even I dared not to venture.

I hope my children can learn from most of my mistakes as well as their own. Know that we love them and only want, what we believe to be the best things for them. Trust in themselves and their loved ones to be there when times get hard and things seem lost.

Just Believe.................................

Lucian is born.

BIRTH STORY
On January 17th at 5am I started feeling what I thought might be labor contractions but I really didn't know and I didn't want to go into the hospital just to be sent home. So I waited until about 8:30am and then we went into the hospital because things weren't really changing much. When we got to the hospital they checked me out and I was 4cm along and things looked to be moving along nicely. We then got moved to our own room and I jumped into the shower for a hour or so. Honestly I could have had the baby in there but there were nurses and doctors that kept coming into my hospital room and checking with stuff and I felt that they were all waiting for me to get out of the shower. So I did. This was at about 11am and they checked me and I turned out to be 6cm so they broke my water. After that contractions started to get really bad so I tried to get back into the shower but I just couldn't handle standing and having contractions. So I jumped back into the bed to see how that was going to be but the contractions were just getting to be a little much. I didn't want to have any drugs and didn't want to have an epidural but I just felt that being less stressed would be better for us all. I got the epidural at about 11:30am when I was 7cm along. Then things stopped. I didn't really move along and for some reason I could still feel all my contractions. Later on we found out they put the epidural in wrong so at 4:30pm they gave me another epidural and things started to move along quickly and by 7pm I was ready to push. I started pushing with all my might and at 7:59pm Lucian Eden Balian Gear was born into the world.

He has been the greatest little gift this world could offer. It is amazing how much your view on love changes when you give birth. Right after I had him I knew he would be our everything and that I would also be always oh so worried about him and everything around him and how things will influence him in life. But we will try our best as that is all we really can do and hope that what we think is best really turns out to be best. lol and that he makes great choices in life and we can offer him everything he needs.

So our little family has started on its way in life. Lets hope the path stays full of love and promise.

Welcome Lucian

Well first I must say I am sorry it took me so long to post this blog but I do think I have a very good excuse for not being able to. In my last blog I thought I might be in labor, well it turned out that that is exactly what it was. I went into the hospital at 9am and had Lucian at 7:59pm. Labor really wasn't that bad at all, at least not as bad as I was expecting. The crazy thing is that I got to come home the very next day.

Lucian Eden Balian Gear was born on January 17th 2006.
He was 9lbs 11oz and 20.4 inches. Brown hair, Brown eyes, 10 fingers, 10 toes, and compleately looks like his Father!!!

Maybe Labor?????

Well right now I may be in labor with baby but hummmmmm...... How do I really know??? I honestly hope it is labor because then baby is finally coming. It is kinda strange and all, for it to start today as I have a doctor's appointment in a few hours. lol if I still am unsure I will just go to my appointment and I am sure she will let me know if it is or isn't labor. As for now I am just letting everyone else get some sleep so that if it is labor they will all be ready for later on and a long day!!!! and if not then I didn't bother anyone with nothing. Which it really could be just false labor because as of now the contractions are a little bit off on the timing to be really labor. So yeah if it is false that is going to be oh so sad for me!!!!!!

3 day's overdue and going crazy!!!

Well I am now 3 day's overdue with baby and it is making me nutty. I just sit around my house waiting for something to happen and nothing is ever happening. Sometimes I start to get excited but then it always turns out to be nothing!!! I am seriously going crazy here. I woke up last night thinking that maybe I was having contractions but no such luck. It turned out just to be a cramp or something. I honestly think this is going to make me crazy if it last too much longer. One sad but good thing is that I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and she did say if by this Friday I haven't had the baby they will induce me. I really don't want to be induced but I guess I will just have to deal with whatever happens. At least I know the baby will be on it's way by this Friday no matter what.

Still no baby!!!

Well there is still no baby and I am still just sitting here waiting for it to show up. The longer it takes the less time my mom will be here to help me out. I will get induced this friday if it still has not made an apperance but I really just wish it would show today. I get grumpier and grumpier by the day!!!

Babies Due Date!!!

Well today is the babies due date!!! It doesn't look like it will be arriving anytime soon today. I guess I will have a few days of waiting or so. I am just hopeing it is soon as I am very sick of it already and I just want baby to come out and greet the world.

10 more days, I guess!!! Maybe???

Damn!!! People are so right about the last week or should I say the last two weeks!!! I am going crazy I want to just have the baby already. I didn't sleep at all, AT ALL last night and barely any other night this week. I hate this whole not sleeping, grumpy, can't get comfortable stuff. Personally I actually hope the baby comes early ummmmm like maybe on the 7th or just after that. Seeing as I would like my mother to be here when it happens and she is coming on the 7th!!
At least she is coming!! If I was all alone sitting here going into labor without Brandon home I think I would be really scared!! So lets just hope it all holds off until mom gets here but then that it happens right away!!!

I was even going to go out this week and try to take my mind off it all and have some fun, but after lastnight I really don't think that would be the smartest idea. I guess I am just going to have to wait for a while to leave my house. Maybe someone will just come to visit me this week instead!!!! Come on friends it is kinda scary to leave my house like this now. And I am really not into trying to make myself pretty!! lol

Well I can always hope for the best of it all. I am off to sleep on my living room floor on an air bed!! Lets hope that is better than the bed seeing as I don't do any sleeping in there anymore!!!